“I am a series of small victories and large defeats and I am as amazed
as any other that I have gotten from there to here.”
— Charles Bukowski
Eighteen. New Zealand. Charlotte.
You can make up your own mind about everything else.
"We grow hungrier and hungrier with no clue what we are hungry for. The holes inside of us grow bigger." - Courtney E. Martin, Perfect Girls, Starving Daughters
"You tried to change didn’t you?
closed your mouth more
tried to be softer
prettier
less volatile, less awake
but even when sleeping you could feel
him travelling away from you in his dreams
so what did you want to do love
split his head open?
you can’t make homes out of human beings
someone should have already told you that
and if he wants to leave
then let him leave
you are terrifying
and strange and beautiful
something not everyone knows how to love." - Warsan Shire, “For Women Who Are Difficult to Love,” (via sotla)
closed your mouth more
tried to be softer
prettier
less volatile, less awake
but even when sleeping you could feel
him travelling away from you in his dreams
so what did you want to do love
split his head open?
you can’t make homes out of human beings
someone should have already told you that
and if he wants to leave
then let him leave
you are terrifying
and strange and beautiful
something not everyone knows how to love." - Warsan Shire, “For Women Who Are Difficult to Love,” (via sotla)
"She was desperate and she was choosey at the same time and, in a way, beautiful, but she didn’t have quite enough going for her to become what she imagined herself to be." - Charles Bukowski, Factotum (via fakeville)
"Repeat after me:
I am not a problem
to be solved.
Repeat after me:
I am worthy I am worthy I am
neither the mistake nor
the punishment." - Sierra DeMulder (via e-ntre)
I am not a problem
to be solved.
Repeat after me:
I am worthy I am worthy I am
neither the mistake nor
the punishment." - Sierra DeMulder (via e-ntre)
"I became less afraid, and there’s the rub. One really ought to be afraid of self-torture. But it tempted me. It begged." - Wasted, Marya Hornbacher (via colinhanks)
"I knew very well that I was not giving it up. I was hanging on, as so many of us do, to some small part of it, to a part so small it seems a mere token, nothing dangerous, a talisman of sickness, kept in the pocket, rubbed between finger and thumb. I told myself it would be alright, just hanging on to this little bit. And I knew, in the back of my mind, that it would not." - Marya Hornbacher (Wasted)
"Loving me will not be easy. Some days I will be a stuttering apology and you won’t know how to handle all the things I’ve done wrong." - writingsforwinter (via emceelizziegibson)
"If you want to kill yourself, kill what you don’t like. Kill narcissus. I had an old self that I killed. You can kill yourself too, but that doesn’t mean you got to stop living." - Vargus, Archie’s Final Project
"The cultural assumption seems to be that there’s something wrong with wanting to eat. Appetite is something to be fended off, with willpower or chemically. We’re locked in a war with our own hunger, which is the primal force that sustains us. Of course the talk shows and magazines aim mainly at women, who make up the vast majority of those with weight issues. We’re socialized to fear our appetites, whether they’re for food or sex or power. We’re taught from birth to make ourselves small and dainty, to not take up room. Can this kind of acculturation cause anorexia? I don’t think so. Can it trigger someone who’s vulnerable? No doubt about it." - “Brave Girl Eating” Harriet Brown (via kelsi-recovers)
"If there’s one thing I’ve learned, it’s this: We all want everything to be okay. We don’t even wish so much for fantastic or marvelous or outstanding. We will happily settle for okay, because most of the time, okay is enough." - David Levithan, Every Day (via larmoyante)
eros is bullshit: a poem
the theory that people
are always searching for
their other half is
bullshit.
don’t let anyone, not
even a god, tell you
you are anything less
than whole.
